I’ve been feeling a major disconnect the last few months. Now that the winter is over – and the sun is finally blessing us with it’s presence – I’m hoping that this feeling will ebb away.
But it’s not just the weather. I feel like I’ve been so busy with all sorts of activities – but not really plugged in. I’m around people, but all alone. And I’ve been completely unable to find time, and more importantly, the words to share on this site for close to 1/2 a year.
I realize that I’m in a stage of “pruning” in my life. God is really cutting things out that I don’t need. And even things that are good. Many of my friends are moving on to new stages in their lives. Beth – my constant companion – has moved to Venezuela for 3 years. Melissa leaves this weekend for 6 months in Vermont and Colorado. Kelly, my best friend for over 20 years just got engaged, and therefore won’t be moving back in the area like she had planned. Kathrin just got engaged as well.
And for those of my good friends who might be more available (and on the same continent) – our schedules just haven’t fit. I’ve also been spending a lot of time lately with family in town (or going out of town to see them.) When I emerge back into my social sphere – I feel more than a little out of the loop. I find that I’m spending more time alone then I have in a long time, and it’s a hard adjustment.
On a plus side, I’m getting some things done around my new house. Not any big changes yet, but baby steps each week. I now have a guest bed room. And some flowers. I think painting some of the all-white walls is next.
And, hopefully, some updating on this site as well. I miss the time I spent flexing a little creative muscle, and visiting my online friends.
Here’s to Spring – a season of new beginnings.